Title:The Love They Kept Hidden
Pairing: Jiraiya X Tsunade
Reason: Very Mild Sexual Content, Possibly violence in later chapters
Summary: What might have happened if Tsunade confessed her feelings for Jiraiya before he left? Haha i feel devious ;)
…And she watched him walk away. Unable to admit to herself the inevitable truth that he would never return. Tears collected in her eyes as her feelings of love for Jiraiya begged her to run after him. Unable to take it any longer, she sprung up from the park bench and began sprinting toward his shrinking figure. With tears flowing freely from her eyes, she began screaming his name. As he turned around at the sound of her voice, she slammed into him and buried his face in her chest, crying softly. “Jiraiya, you can’t do this…you can’t do this to me…don’t leave me…Please.” She hated to beg, but she was desperate. Jiraiya looked down at her and smiled. He gently lifted her chin and, wiping her tears, kissed her tenderly. “I’ll always be with you Hime. You know that. Let me walk you home.” Jiraiya walked back to the Hokage tower with Tsunade by his side, a somber look still on her face. But Jiraiya knew her too well. “Tsunade, I know that look. What is bothering you?” Tsunade looked at him with eyes that could break even the hardest of hearts. He knew right there and then what she wanted. “Jiraiya, with you gone, I’ll be all alone. Almost everyone I love will have been taken away from me…” Jiraiya looked at her and, as they approached the Hokage tower, whispered in her ear, “We still have tonight…” She smiled. “I knew you’d catch on, Baka”
Jiraiya carefully led her upstairs to her bedroom. The sun had just set in Konoha and it was a perfectly romantic night. The moon was bright and the stars lit up the sky. Tsunade gently blushed as Jiraiya removed her jacket, slowly unveiling inch after inch of milky skin. She lifted her arms and placed her hands on his strong chest. Her big amber eyes stared back at him.
Full of love.
Full of desire.
Full of need.
Jiraiya carefully bent and kissed her passionately. Her emotions flooded her body and she was enveloped in this sense of perfection. She moaned slightly as he began kissing her neck; and shuddered as he moved to the exposed areas of her chest, leaving behind a trail of kisses. She wrapped her arms around his neck as they fell down to the bed. Flurries of kisses and moans of ‘I love you’ in between floated about the room. Jiraiya carefully removed her gray, kimono style shirt with his big, gentle hands. Tsunade’s lips curled into a smile under his as his hands roamed up and down her bare torso. He never would have imagined how perfectly his hands fit with her curves. They moved from around her breasts to her hips so perfectly he was almost convinced that he and Tsunade were made for no one else but each other. By this time, Jiraiya’s clothes had been shed and on the floor. He gave Tsunade, still trying to catch her breath, a look as if asking her permission. She smiled and said tiredly, “You’ve made me wait all these years. Don’t make me wait any longer.” She tilted her head back and her dreams were realized. Jiraiya carefully slid himself inside of her. Her breath suddenly left her and her eyes grew wide. All she felt was this perfect oneness with Jiraiya. “After all these years, I never thought it would be like this.” She thought to herself. What she felt was complete ecstasy with him and him with her. To the point where she was almost screaming with pleasure. Jiraiya had been with lots of women before, but this was different. It was never this full of pleasure. And she was like no other. The feel of her skin, the beauty of her face, the gloriousness of her moan. He loved her. When it was over, he just about collapsed on top of her. Trembling, he lay down next to her and cradled her in his arms. She felt so safe and warm in his arms. “Tsunade, I love you so much.” He told her as he gently held her. “Jiraiya, I love you too. Since we were young. But I never admitted it to myself. I was too afraid to get close to anyone after I lost Dan.” She confessed. He put a delicate hand on her cheek. “Hime, it’s ok. I’m here now, I’ve got you.”
She smiled. “I know, Jiraiya, I know” and with that, they both fell asleep in each other’s arms on the most perfect night of their lives.
Tsunade awoke to a bright sunshine that blanketed her face. The birds were pleasantly chirping and a warm summer breeze came in through the open window. She smiled as memories of the past night filled her head. She could still smell traces of his scent on her skin. It was enough to make her shudder. Tsunade gently rolled over, expecting to see a still sleeping Jiraiya. She wanted to kiss him awake and talk about their future. But he was not there. The smile swiftly left her face as she sat up, holding the sheets to her naked body with one hand and the other hand pressed to her forehead. She began breathing heavily and began jumping to conclusions out of pure shock. Was he ashamed of being with me? Was he afraid I was drunk and would kill him when I came to? Was I not good enough for him? Oh God, was I not good enough for him? Was all he wanted a one-night stand? Panic arose in her chest as she figured out the real reason. He went after the Akatsuki. Tsunade flew out of bed, threw on her clothes, and began tearing up the room. She didn’t even know what she was searching for. After a few minutes of useless searching and scrambling about the room, something caught her eye. A note. It was addressed to her. He must have left it. With the panic beginning to settle and being replaced by utter dread, she slowly sat down and read it.
I have gone off to fight the Akatsuki. It tears my heart out to leave you now, after what happened between us, but it had to be done. I had to do whatever I could to protect the village, to protect Naruto, to protect you. Just throw everything you’ve got into that bet we made! That ought ’a do it! And when I win, I’m going to give you everything you deserved in life but never got. Happiness, Hope, and Love. Yes you deserve it all. Never try to tell yourself otherwise. I love you! I always have! And I’m grateful that we got to be together before I had to leave. Well you know why. Anyway I hope you truly understand how much I love you and why I had to do this. Thank you for everything.
See you around,
The tears started falling a while ago. She couldn’t help them nor did she want to. She was filled with sorrow and anger. Her world came crashing down, for she knew the inevitable. All she could do was sit on her bed and weep. She sat there, the tears falling, only to be interrupted by a knock on her bedroom door.It was early morning in the land of fire. Jiraiya sat on a tree branch only miles away from the border. He tried shaking the feelings of hatred for himself, but to no avail. I left her. I can’t believe I left her. After she begged me not to. What kind of disgusting person does that? He felt so disgusted in himself, he had to stop and throw up maybe once or twice. He knew he had to do something about this feeling. He told himself when he returned, they would go and get married, pour their love out to each other, and live a happy life. He used this as a motive to persevere. To never give up. That was his ‘nindo’. And he was ready to give everything for her. Not long after, Jiraiya came to a familiar sight. One he had seen some 30 years before. The land of Amekagure; the land of the Hidden Rain.
Author's Note: So what did you think? its not finished yet so additional chapters may change with what i have in mind. im open for ideas also! please review!!!